Book and reality
I sat here reading my book and thinking of the characters mingling with the situations in my life. All I hope for now to see people together finally. Just being capable of saying that they are in truth, fully a couple or family.
To me if you have to wait in secret for months to go by before you are capable of admitting you are together the reality of the situation is that something will always be hidden.
So much can be displayed that way. Even with the reasoning and conversations you may have, a secret is always a secret and will lead to more. In which causes confusion.
See that is why my hope to see that two people can actually not be afraid to be seen in the same photo. Much less be afraid of whatever come afterwards. I hope to see you not these scared steps they take.
Yet what can I say. I am just a stranger looking in. I know not the whole story but I know hiding yourselves is a lie. It's bad to start a friendship or relationship on a lie. Just be bold.
And yet what has this got to do with me? See me? I did my bold steps. I took care of myself they way it was necessary. I am living how I am supposed to. Not scared of treading on anyone's feet. Goodness me if I lived that way I would never leave my house. Much less drive a certain way out of my complex.
But this is where I am different. I am not ashamed. I was at first. Yet now the only thing I am doing is hoping big for someone who knows nothing about me. I am praying for their lives to be loving and enjoyable.
Because Thursday I go through a new procedure and I am going to tackle whatever is necessary to keep me staying strong. All the while listening to Jehovah's words.
And today as I finish this book and move on to another one, I am capable of saying if I stood next to someone, I would be proud to take a photo of us loving each other and take in stride whatever storm comes after.
Yet you see, that is the difference between us. I am not afraid of the slaps in the face nor the whole endless destruction. Because I have been there before.
I can stand. I would demand. The changes I have made are that, I don't fall down because the wind is howling. I just brace myself for the torrent river to wash around me.
My boldness is only coming into knowledge of who I am, what I am worth. For if some can't stand beside me and say I am theirs then I have no want or need of them in my life.
Too much has been erased from my life to allow that much bleakness back inside. So if I were you, demand the attention and the proclamation out loud. Across life.
Yet that is our differences. I am not you and you can't be me.
To me if you have to wait in secret for months to go by before you are capable of admitting you are together the reality of the situation is that something will always be hidden.
So much can be displayed that way. Even with the reasoning and conversations you may have, a secret is always a secret and will lead to more. In which causes confusion.
See that is why my hope to see that two people can actually not be afraid to be seen in the same photo. Much less be afraid of whatever come afterwards. I hope to see you not these scared steps they take.
Yet what can I say. I am just a stranger looking in. I know not the whole story but I know hiding yourselves is a lie. It's bad to start a friendship or relationship on a lie. Just be bold.
And yet what has this got to do with me? See me? I did my bold steps. I took care of myself they way it was necessary. I am living how I am supposed to. Not scared of treading on anyone's feet. Goodness me if I lived that way I would never leave my house. Much less drive a certain way out of my complex.
But this is where I am different. I am not ashamed. I was at first. Yet now the only thing I am doing is hoping big for someone who knows nothing about me. I am praying for their lives to be loving and enjoyable.
Because Thursday I go through a new procedure and I am going to tackle whatever is necessary to keep me staying strong. All the while listening to Jehovah's words.
And today as I finish this book and move on to another one, I am capable of saying if I stood next to someone, I would be proud to take a photo of us loving each other and take in stride whatever storm comes after.
Yet you see, that is the difference between us. I am not afraid of the slaps in the face nor the whole endless destruction. Because I have been there before.
I can stand. I would demand. The changes I have made are that, I don't fall down because the wind is howling. I just brace myself for the torrent river to wash around me.
My boldness is only coming into knowledge of who I am, what I am worth. For if some can't stand beside me and say I am theirs then I have no want or need of them in my life.
Too much has been erased from my life to allow that much bleakness back inside. So if I were you, demand the attention and the proclamation out loud. Across life.
Yet that is our differences. I am not you and you can't be me.
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