Importance
I sat here wondering what family importance was in my life. My kids will always be at top of the list even though I have only seen them via pictures.
In truth it hurts daily but I have learned what was right for them doesn't necessarily mean it was a good situation for me. And as much as I know that is selfish I did sacrifice so much more for them. Yet they will never know because we are not close.
Sure I hate that but I love that they are growing up loved and safe.
And the next piece of importance is remaining close to those who are my family. It doesn't matter that we NEVER agree on anything but to agree just to disagree. But to truly be comfortable with that, yes.
I am not close to my family. I strive to achieve the closeness without being too close. For the lives they live outstand me. I cannot begin to understand how they are as they are except through these regular cycles they have. Quite an unusual circumstance.
And yet I hope for some of their lives to come into mine, even for a moment.
Though through watching something that reminded me of my past chimed in the reality of how cruelly structured it was. And I turned out good not bad. Sure those who know of me recently say not and that my choices were wrong. Yet considering my life it has been an ongoing battle and I am still here.
So the importance of life is growth. Always learning how to be better than I was yesterday. Even if the change is as tiny as a speck of sand, it is a change. Progress.
So where will I go from here? Definitely will surpass the expectations and goals I have set. Even have done so in the last few days.
Miracles do happen with application and hard work. That is the reality. And believing, having faith in God. So all the importance aspects of my life I hope I gain renewal in some things and I adapt in others.
All is possible even more so now than yesterday.
In truth it hurts daily but I have learned what was right for them doesn't necessarily mean it was a good situation for me. And as much as I know that is selfish I did sacrifice so much more for them. Yet they will never know because we are not close.
Sure I hate that but I love that they are growing up loved and safe.
And the next piece of importance is remaining close to those who are my family. It doesn't matter that we NEVER agree on anything but to agree just to disagree. But to truly be comfortable with that, yes.
I am not close to my family. I strive to achieve the closeness without being too close. For the lives they live outstand me. I cannot begin to understand how they are as they are except through these regular cycles they have. Quite an unusual circumstance.
And yet I hope for some of their lives to come into mine, even for a moment.
Though through watching something that reminded me of my past chimed in the reality of how cruelly structured it was. And I turned out good not bad. Sure those who know of me recently say not and that my choices were wrong. Yet considering my life it has been an ongoing battle and I am still here.
So the importance of life is growth. Always learning how to be better than I was yesterday. Even if the change is as tiny as a speck of sand, it is a change. Progress.
So where will I go from here? Definitely will surpass the expectations and goals I have set. Even have done so in the last few days.
Miracles do happen with application and hard work. That is the reality. And believing, having faith in God. So all the importance aspects of my life I hope I gain renewal in some things and I adapt in others.
All is possible even more so now than yesterday.
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