Tiny adventures
Tuning myself into the music as I do another phase of my painting, I see the bounce in my life. I see the bits of peaceful joy that spring up here and there. Even when I turn my mind to thinking of those who I left behind in my life.
I still see joy I am holding now. As much as I have tiny stinging points of pain I still see that I am way better off.i understand there are those moments where I just want one of them to come up to me, out of the blue, and give me a hug.
Yet I don't even bother wondering if that will ever happen because the music finds the spiritual level that makes me understand why all was left behind. Then I see the sighs of my life and find myself even more happy because of the awareness I have.
So just priming pieces of artwork for a lot more work to start tomorrow. And today, I got my high.
That piece of smirking knowing I can survive without people. That is the kindness.
Sure I would love to have a conversation, a real one over the phone but to hear someone call me, I laugh.
Gently I put the paint brushes away. Brush off the thoughts and head down the hallway. Work demands more attention. So here I come.
Indeed surprises are nice but friends are tons better. Yet I don't push myself on anyone. You like me or you don't. There is no gray area as of right now.
So take yourself out of the work lighting and make an adventure. Even if it is just your hobbies or watching tv. Just make the last parts of today something wonderful for just yourself. Do you think that is possible?
You tell me.
I still see joy I am holding now. As much as I have tiny stinging points of pain I still see that I am way better off.i understand there are those moments where I just want one of them to come up to me, out of the blue, and give me a hug.
Yet I don't even bother wondering if that will ever happen because the music finds the spiritual level that makes me understand why all was left behind. Then I see the sighs of my life and find myself even more happy because of the awareness I have.
So just priming pieces of artwork for a lot more work to start tomorrow. And today, I got my high.
That piece of smirking knowing I can survive without people. That is the kindness.
Sure I would love to have a conversation, a real one over the phone but to hear someone call me, I laugh.
Gently I put the paint brushes away. Brush off the thoughts and head down the hallway. Work demands more attention. So here I come.
Indeed surprises are nice but friends are tons better. Yet I don't push myself on anyone. You like me or you don't. There is no gray area as of right now.
So take yourself out of the work lighting and make an adventure. Even if it is just your hobbies or watching tv. Just make the last parts of today something wonderful for just yourself. Do you think that is possible?
You tell me.
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