Spouts today
So many simple thoughts today. I was just on a chat forum that I hadn't been on in a long time. For the sake of interrupting someone else's conversations. Then I put that aside and just got on. Knowing that I could be in the same "room" as them would be a trial. Knowing I have done it before, always capable now.
Yet I was grateful that they were not there. The joy that bounced back inside of me. Saying I can go forward and do whatever, is grand. Learning that I am okay and I can be fine in so many ways. Its the kindness that I have for myself.
Yes even there are days when I do more harm than necessary to myself only because the constant scenarios and outplays of such events kind of scare me. I must cease my mind, sometimes, from thinking so much. Oh how I laugh right now.
So silly to contemplate those of my past mingling with my present much less the future. For I am certain they will not be involved in my life for at least a few months if not years. It is not at all a sad saying. It is the best thing I have said in a long time.
The words that I say don't choke up on me anymore. The emotions of what was gone yesterday is truly gone. Though the thoughts of friendships and foes always come back. Yet not in badness just a few jaunts of sadness but it all works out in the end.
So the life is good. The chatting is grand. As for my old friends, you know where to find me. Though most can't talk to me. Alas that is life. Until I step foot back into a place that holds joy in my spirit once more. Jehovah knows when.
I am patient. Are you? Friend or foe I will always be happy to love you.
Yet I was grateful that they were not there. The joy that bounced back inside of me. Saying I can go forward and do whatever, is grand. Learning that I am okay and I can be fine in so many ways. Its the kindness that I have for myself.
Yes even there are days when I do more harm than necessary to myself only because the constant scenarios and outplays of such events kind of scare me. I must cease my mind, sometimes, from thinking so much. Oh how I laugh right now.
So silly to contemplate those of my past mingling with my present much less the future. For I am certain they will not be involved in my life for at least a few months if not years. It is not at all a sad saying. It is the best thing I have said in a long time.
The words that I say don't choke up on me anymore. The emotions of what was gone yesterday is truly gone. Though the thoughts of friendships and foes always come back. Yet not in badness just a few jaunts of sadness but it all works out in the end.
So the life is good. The chatting is grand. As for my old friends, you know where to find me. Though most can't talk to me. Alas that is life. Until I step foot back into a place that holds joy in my spirit once more. Jehovah knows when.
I am patient. Are you? Friend or foe I will always be happy to love you.
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