Typical autumn day
I found myself loving the rain today. So much coolness. Typical autumn day. So many good memories I made.
Certainly not with anyone but myself. Yet as odd as that sounds it was all good.
Large droplets of water dripped down my forehead as I got the mail and all I could do was laugh. Clearly it was the highlight of the day.
And now picking up a shift at work because the loads are getting busier and less people are coming. So in I go in a little while to help out.
It's a good thing to get the right start on the season. And show I am capable of much even in off circumstances.
To much of my dismay I haven't found the right time to tell anyone about my situation but I didny want to drown myself in any pity. I just want to pretend for a little while longer.
Pretend what?
Oh the hopes of just being "fine". Yet I know within I am not. And as much as I live every day with joy there are times when joy is the ONLY thing keeping me positive.
Sorry for my tears. Not sorry for the splotchy face. Nor that of the sighs either.
And now I realize the time and just think of the jaunt into the traffic tonight. Soon I will be heading out. Only to turn around and go right back in. But help is needed and I clear my mind of any sickness.
So right now just gotta breathe and be thankful. As for my working friends remember stress and the job is only part of a day. The rest is what you make of it. So even if you had a small walk be grateful you got that time to yourself. It's the best experience, yes?
So grand is the night. Enjoy and remember to love and hug those who are dear to you. They all need to know you are genuine.
Certainly not with anyone but myself. Yet as odd as that sounds it was all good.
Large droplets of water dripped down my forehead as I got the mail and all I could do was laugh. Clearly it was the highlight of the day.
And now picking up a shift at work because the loads are getting busier and less people are coming. So in I go in a little while to help out.
It's a good thing to get the right start on the season. And show I am capable of much even in off circumstances.
To much of my dismay I haven't found the right time to tell anyone about my situation but I didny want to drown myself in any pity. I just want to pretend for a little while longer.
Pretend what?
Oh the hopes of just being "fine". Yet I know within I am not. And as much as I live every day with joy there are times when joy is the ONLY thing keeping me positive.
Sorry for my tears. Not sorry for the splotchy face. Nor that of the sighs either.
And now I realize the time and just think of the jaunt into the traffic tonight. Soon I will be heading out. Only to turn around and go right back in. But help is needed and I clear my mind of any sickness.
So right now just gotta breathe and be thankful. As for my working friends remember stress and the job is only part of a day. The rest is what you make of it. So even if you had a small walk be grateful you got that time to yourself. It's the best experience, yes?
So grand is the night. Enjoy and remember to love and hug those who are dear to you. They all need to know you are genuine.
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