News with stride and grit

Sitting at home in my chair, barely able to eat. Crying too much. Need to get it out.

Once again more bad news but I know I will be positive in all my steps. Even broke down and passed on information to the right people.

One of the hardest things for me to do without sobbing on the phone. And I did it. Staying positive in some sort of twisted idea of it.

And right now just letting the news sink in so I can readjust my life, once more. And it is slowly sinking in. Back to the reality of life.

Watching my favorite 2 movies tonight to uplift me. Far off place and Umrao Jaan.  Only thing I can do for today. Just live and breathe.

Because the info I have to the person is vital for them but for me it is deadly. Yet I am not afraid what will happen.  I am grateful.

Such a bawling mess. Need to clean my face and carry on. Finding that grit to help me.

Time. All I need to do is have time, long enough.

With that said I can do it. I always make it.