Movie of gifts

It is interesting how I push all parts of memories of gifts out of my head and then when I least expect it one arrives. Not in the sense that I got one today but I come across one that I forgotten to give back. Not because I didn't want it, but to help clear away any sort of connection.

Yet I seem to forget parts of me are permanently attached to parts of his past. But that is where I stay. And it is good.

Yet I smiled when I came across the movie Gaurdians of the Galaxy. Not mine to keep but not mine to give back either.  Then I think of all the stones, rings and wire. Ah. But also time.

And does it hurt, just a little bit but those are parts of yesterdays. Today I just had to laugh because in my move I had it set out to give back because it wasn't mine.

But of all the gifts I gained time, photos,  memories and friendship I miss the most. Yet the interesting piece if life is that we went our separate ways. So beautiful and damaging that day was.

So long ago it seems. For the good. Takes many bits of smiles and a few tears to realize just how blessed those times were even though maybe wrong time and place.

And today, well today I have just me and my cat. Watching a movie that quotes something I understand deeply ( I don't know love. I was built to protect not to love.) 

So sure friends and family will be interesting but who you grow with now are called that. Read the signs. Be happy for I know you shine thoroughly in gift giving. 

Interestingly enough I wish I could take back that tree photo. Though it is long gone, I have a permanent home for it now. But now it isn't mine.

The lessons in life. 

So I smile and say thank you for being my friend when I needed you.