Yes I know you cannot see my heart

A flash that radiated before my eyes.
Closed tightly underneath my lids. Oh
how could that memory be here? Just in
those few seconds only to disappear again?

Times I feel as though age does mean
something only to realize Jehovah doesn't
want this to burden us.

How do I look away when all that
was thrown at me moments ago still
aches inside? All that I must do is
talk, pray to my, our Father, Jehovah.
He will help me in all due time.

Walk this way. Walk that way.
Standing motionless does nothing.
Must take action but in proper
protocol. How else would I be if
there was no organization in life?
Oh right, one of those lost roaming
sheep.

Yes I understand to as much as
Jehovah allows me to. To question
Jehovah of his authority is wrong.

Only thing I ask is that what flashed
before my closed eyelids to not resurface
again. Pain, sorrow and thousands of
tears followed.

I only wanted to be loved. Now I
know what love is. So happy to have
found that and a whole nation
of family I didn't know existed. Such
a grand reward Jehovah has shown
me.

Every day gets better and better. So
please Jehovah don't let that memory
surface too often.

As for my family I have found. Just keep
strengthening me as I do you. Your
faces bring joy to my spirit and help
me learn more and more about our
Father, Jehovah and his only
Begotten son, Jesus Christ.

I thank you so many times family.
If only you could see my heart as
Jehovah does.

Still you cannot so just feel the joy
that shines from deep within. Sparkling
out the slate blue eyes.