One time I..

   One time I am certain
I would have wanted all to be
different. Now I wouldn't know
how to react if my way had happened.

  So grateful all fell in pieces
as it did. So happy I collapsed
to a complete empty shell. Started over
as a new person. Grateful that I am
not selfish nor abrupt anymore.

  Nor am I lost, broken. Bitter
no more. Ended of the pain that killed
my spirit.

  Open. So happy I was shown
how to feel once more. Never would
I have believed love, happiness and
trust would be attainable.

  Incredible how one seed
planted creates such a beautiful,
emerging spirit. Oh how, someday,
you will understand the gratitude
I have for the fall I was given.

  One more time I pinch self
to believe how surreal the entire
experience has been. Even more so
that every day gets better.

  I display a grand smile.
    My secret of happiness for your
      steps. Joy radiates throughout.

  I hope you heard my hug echoing in
the midnight, cooling air.