Such a heavy debate

   Torn down the middle
about whether a grand hug from
someone I haven't seen in a while
or just a huge smile from someone I
haven't spoken to in a long time, is
better.

  Ah such torment. Both, no
choice to be decided. Just hope for both.
In the end, a new beginning either
way.

  Close my eyes and dream. Hope
that life seems smoother soon or later.
Even if for a few seconds. Catch a
breath. Hold for a moment and release.
Calming is it not?

  Steps I take to close the gap
for when I no longer have such a
heavy debate. I will be able to do and
have both, all.

  Such joy. Will you be happy
to give me a hug too?

     How about just to say my
   name as a newfound family member?

          Is ther not a sparkle in your eye for
               knowing one day, yes?