A hurt that fades

   Oh how the morning echoes tiny
whistles in the wind. So much I would
like to disappear. Only the reality
hits harder than the fantasy.

   Wild, wild streaks carry the
screams I hold deep within. Oh how
I tighten the reins on the words. The
memories I cringe seeing.

   One step back is all it takes
to fall. One look at an unforgettable
"what if". All that can tear
me apart.

   How do I look away? Strive
harder, faster, steadier with only
the help of Jehovah. All else
in way fades.

   The smile I sought out
only, now, hurts because senses,
heart is lower. Could I just
show you, explain to you the
injustice left behind?

   Yes I do forgive. Yes I am
moving forward. Still the
memories pick at mind. Close
my eyes. I cry for all I once
had. Now I am me, alone
in soul but many in spirit.

   I thank Jehovah for his
hands and angels to guide me.
Else I would be a lost child.
Uncertain how to search for
my Father.