What was said in night air?

   Did you know I had thoughts of long ago, today?
Bringing back memories of childhood. Fast paced
with excitement of alarming people. Truly, still,
amazed at how I did that without even trying

    Still I find myself waiting and waiting for
something spontaneous to happen. Still I sit here
waiting.

    Laughing at self for the childish actions when I
know full and well that I won't have anything like
what are in thoughts, happen. I hope too high,
perhaps?

    Ah the irony of the situation.

    Soaking up the memories that played over and
over in my mind. The shocks, the chills, the
overwhelming excitement that was released. What
a burst of joy I had, then. Now I just say "pfft" in
my head.

    What was the point?

    So here I am in silence, pondering what should
be spoken, thought just to ease out of the eeire
emotion that is ransacking my soul. The ache of
wanting and the conscience that is shouting,
get back. The war that is tearing insides.

    Who cares, right?

    Still I want to ask, say something but I know
what is best: staying quiet and grinning, smiling.
Waiting. Sitting in room, waiting. Ugh and more
waiting.

    Why? Why? Why?

    Just say something already. ANYTHING! Then a
whisper touches my ear and sends goose bumps
rolling down my shoulders, down stomach to
toes. Ooh how odd that feeling is. The supreme
moment that stuns. Leaves a huge "o" imprinted
on my lips.

   Hmm who, what was said in the night air?