Complete answer to be known, someday

    One look, one day to hold hand.
To take and twirl around your presence.
Ah I close my eyes and feel all the
heated frustration pour down inside
soul.

      Want to scream out loud. Yell
at your face. Still what does that accomplish?
Best to hold onto anger for placing
at your feet only hurts you. No
beginning can be refreshed. Why would
I want to take you back there?

      Oh one step back. Stand still for
a minute. Breathe. Trust that Jehovah will
explain. The complete answer to be known,
someday. Only hope patience holds me
back, holds me tightly because the mistakes
of human error rages. Self loathing can
eat at a person.

      I hope for time to heal the insecurities,
the want, need for answers now! So only,
now, I distance myself from you. Give my
encouraging smiles and occasional wave.
Still questions float in my mind. I
just wait for what, when Jehovah shows
the necessity is considered now.

     I hope sooner than later. To wonder is
empty. To continue moving closer and closer
to trusting, loving Jehovah I will, one day,
have you again. Family I continue to
grow. Please forgive me of my lost look.

     Just keep smiling for that receives one
            in return.

            My lost family, continue to just loving me
                 for all I have become and striving to change.