A memory of learning

  Crawling. Hiding. Child that sees too
much. Holding knees to chest. Face hidden
in legs. Chills race down spine.

  Please, please oh God, keep me safe
for one more night. Begging silently,
to self, in head.

  Head lifted only to watch horror. Cover
mouth to hold cries quietly inside. Eyes
blink back terror, tears.

  Oh a memory I cringe to remember.
Holding fingers to lips to stop the
quivering. Thinking and thanking
Jehovah I was spared.

         To forgive is easy.
             I am sorry, apologizing too much.
         To forget would be nice.
             Yet I have learned, adapted.
         To trust is very hard.
              I only believe there is one I can.
         To love has been overwhelming.
              Showing me so much, seeing and
                                 believing - AMAZING!

   Long ago I would hide. No tears fell
because a weakness. Too many enemies
that could use to destroy.

   Now have learned of love, trust.
I have forgiven and understand to
  forget the small imperfections we all
                 strive to clear.