The mistakes people make about me

     The confusion so many people get into these days.
Why do that to yourselves? Why assume things that
you know nothing about just to satisfy your hunger
for gossip.

     I cry for you because your actions are petty and
still, somehow, you find a way to justify yourself.
Why? Just to pin something on someone who at one
time was guilty but now totally different. Jehovah
forgave me, not you. I did not ask you of forgiveness
only Jehovah. I cannot begin to understand you and
that is why Jehovah is here. He will see what is right.

    Sadly that some people who read my words, turn
them into their own twisted interpretations. Sorry
that some people have to be that way. Imperfections,
yes. Sadly, also, that they revert to thinking I have
gone back to old self. So empty, if they think that I
would ever want to return to who I was. Yes there
are moments I like to close my eyes and recall
the good times, but remember they are MY memories.

    I do miss parts of me but would I ever go back
to the empty shell I once was? No. It would not
benefit me in any of the aspects of that life if I fell
back to that person. So yes I cry from the actions of
history. Yes I hold tightly to thoughts that passed
over my mind. Yes there are people I want to
hold again but for you to automatically think
of negative, I pray Jehovah finds you and corrects
you of your evil thoughts.

     For someone to think nasty thoughts of my actions
is horrific. How, why? Goodness you really must
be vicious to believe someone who changed
everything in her life, to just simply slip back to
the old routine. Ah perhaps someone you knew or
even you yourself did that. For that I am sorry that
it happened but I am not that person. If I could erase
that experience for you I would but I am not Jehovah.
Only he can help heal you. So all I can do is pray
for your imperfections and hope that your childish
ways cease. For they only hurt you.

    I am astounded by how much those who "claim"
to be loyal to me really are not especially when I
know as soon as my back is turned it is my name
escaping their lips. For the ones that stand by me
in my most distressing times, my most frantic, silent
moments I am most grateful. These are the people
I trust. So if you think I am going to stand there
while you tear my character out of proportion to
serve your pity party, seriously think again for
Jehovah sees your actions and he will correct you
in due time.

   For those who are aware of my quirkiness and love
me for who I am, I thank you more than most ever
will see but that is okay. Jehovah hears my gratitude
towards you and him. I thank Jehovah for allowing
me to accept you into my life.

   So for all those who love me and stand closeby
to my uniqueness, I give the grandest hug and
biggest, widest grin to lighten up your walkway.

   Jehovah sees how much joy I am displaying.
So I hope you do too.