Breathing now

Did I just breathe? The freshness of sickness washed
away. A moment of absolute joy. Only jumping up
and down inside.

Carefully I take steps outside. Been a thought in
dreams throughout the day. To embrace the coldness.
Hmm how grand it is to feel the wind chapping
cheeks and lips. Ah how much I missed.

Gently I place my hand on door. Turning knob to
close and lock smoke induced apartment. Far, far
away from senses. Only for a few hours of course.

Opening eyes as the sun sets behind darkness.
Grateful for that moment to see streaks of the sun
falling. Ah such peace waves over me.

Only now I get into car to feel even more energized.
Knowing that I get to see faces of family. This is very
encouraging to my spiritual growth. A tiny giggle
escapes my throat. Giddy to a point of irritation. I
try so hard to concentrate on driving.

Ah how I am so overjoyed to get out of house, away
from anything that relates to sickness. Hmm a hug
is definitely needed. Of course I understand some
still may keep me at a distance, which I know is
a necessity.

So if you are near me, hug me. Send huge goofy
grins my way to lighten the atmosphere. Always
an encouraging word, laughter to hear from me,
yes?

So I smile knowing that shortly I will receive the
spiritual food that carries me to tomorrow.

Getting out of car, hoping, silently, to see you soon.

My eyes twinkle as I smile shyly recalling a
thought.