Chaotic feeling

A must have. One lasting word. Only a few letters
remain in mystery. Still a solid memory cries out. Oh
how the world laugh and the cynical being arises.

Step back. Stand clear. Smile and hope for a warming
of the hidden sunlight.

Tingles that send chills throughout body. How, why
I feel exuberant about everything. Such a sensation
that even nasty weather cannot tear from me.

Ah I sigh. Aching for a release. One walk, one song.
Setting soul free to dance and escape for a few
minutes. All before the chaos begins.

Hmm. Thoughts that rumble in head. Creating,
causing a huge ripple effect from memory to core.
How does one just allow it to be? Let will take place?

Pressing forward as the proceeds to afternoon. Drive,
drive I hope to exhaust some of this pent up emotion.
Lashing out on steering wheel.

Do so hope parts cease their request of me.
Performing well is a necessity but stirrings are causing
a major mix up. Ugh how can I push it out away
from harm?

What, dare I ask, is going on? Hmm. I exhale long
and low. Pressing down on diaphragm and inhaling
freshness. Oh how I had wanted the breathing
techniques to help but all it is doing is increasing this
sensitivity.

Please dear one pray as I am to empty soul of what is
there.

Yes I am happy but almost too much to know not
good at this level. I would hope not to be too irrational
on extreme positive side. I can handle some but not
this.

Oh shake it off. Put music to ears and dance. Listen,
absorb and void out all that is pulsing deep within
soul.

Only for a while, I say. Only to focus once more.
To fill soul, spirit with more joy of a different kind.
Ah the start of a simmer. Thank you Jehovah for
hearing me.