A joyful memory to make

  Haven't felt this much joy springing along in a long
time. Can only recall enough times on one hand that
equals this feeling.

   Ah how a big sigh is released and time is put on
hold. Nice to say that I can recall all so vividly. A few
so recent too.

  Why, how? Please I must rest for in a few short
hours I place more shine on face. I smile and laugh
for a display. Hoping that the corners of eyes don't
twinkle with too much water.

  Ah how a silent prayer opens up. Proceeding to
claim all worries to Jehovah. Empty my concerns
onto him for how else could I stand tall for all to see?

   Sitting here contemplating all the memories
splashing across mind and closed eyelids. Oh blink
back tears, please. I don't want a pounding hammer
inside head come morning.

   Eyes opened long enough to yawn. Getting up to
make some tea. Sensing I am not going to sleep any
time soon. I search for more reading materials and
begin a request of a lesson.

   So come, join me in my adventure. My reading.
My stroll of memories. The movie of ironic reality.
The cynical stretch to hide what is really hurting.

   Forgive me of my private moments. Forgive me
of the need to constantly speak of love and
happiness. Forgive me, would you?

   Oh I chide self for asking too much. Talk self
into reasons why answers would be placed before
me. Reality of the situation is, I can keep asking. I
can keep hoping, dreaming but the question is
when is there a way for someone to give anything
back in return?

   Mysterious kindness. A favor if you please. Dare
I ask anything more, less. No. For whatever could
be given has been. No less thoughts of what may
come. Do I respond sincerely? Yes. Wholeheartedly.

   Whether it is noticed or even taken is up to
you. Often times doubt plays hard to win but hope
strives stronger and overcomes.

   Yes I know you can achieve whatever set goal,
dream is placed high on list. Only I hope I am top
to all. Perhaps?

   Only a dreamer can dream in colors. Only a
dreamer can improve reality. So allow this one to
gain entrance into your life. Allow a moment to be
created in joy, yet in the smallest of wonders.

   A significant emotion pressed between two loving
arms. Engulfed in a warming sensation that spreads
throughout soul, clear down to spirit.

    Say did you see my blue eyes sparkle behind
olive frames? Did you feel my heart pound rapidly?
Did you breathe in all of this moment? Did you
whisper a thanks to Jehovah for letting a moment
so rare vibrate throughout your soul? Did you?

  Oh a sigh is let go. Captured in the cool yellowed
lit room. Warmth soaks. Eyes opened wider. A
waiting game begins as time extends to one more
memory.

  Care to make a few with me today?