A post within my company

All that halts the mind sits weighing deep inside
spirit. A light flickering echoes over lids. Here carry
me I ask of you.

Sit with me as I type away, perhaps, in vain. To lose
all train of of thoughts currently would be grand. To
sit here in awe of your presence. Like a child in a
toy or candy store. Awestruck for the first time.

Excitement to overrule emotions. Overrun the
emptiness that was soaking up time. To finally be
sitting next to someone I have dreamed about. Hmm.

Oh Jehovah sees his daughter waiting patiently while
all else is in fast forward. Still I scan the view of the
skies in gracious thanks to my Father, Jehovah for
all that he has taught me.

How the skills I have tuned up and gained over the
last couple of years. Truly a blessing for me.

Sadly though the loss of siblings and family causes
a wedge between me and others. Careful of who I
allow inside. Who I let see the real me. Have learned
from you that the best medicine is silence.

So in that instance I thank you. Yes I actually listened
up until all that I thought possible, poured out like
sour milk.

Still anything is possible with Jehovah by my side.
Even small glimmers of seeing you. Believing that
life that Jehovah wants me to have, is down this
path. May be a narrow one but still it completes
the circle. One that Jehovah created.

Now I exhale deeply. Wanting to have in sight but
still do not even hold thought in mind too long. Do
not need for anything. Jehovah has taught me that I
am capable of being unique on my own. No one
can stand in my way for pursuing him.

Is that not grand news to hear?

Did you know one smile from you uplifts? A kiss
on the wind brings chills across pale freckled skin.
A warm, tight hug brings such overwhelming love.

Here, I pat the cushion beside me. Come sit with
me. Let talk of changes. Let us survey the new
adventures we must partake in.

Would you, could you enjoy my company?