Just know that love does surround

A shock that brought me to my feet. Jarring me out
of sleep. Such an explosion, I felt so unstable.

Uncertain as to how the climax of my dream even
began winding inside. Perhaps a memory or a
concern. Maybe a desire or a need. Not sure but
there it was.

Waking me from something so soothing. So certain
that I cannot go back to sleep. Had not planned
on being awake for another two hours. Possibilities
are endless. Best to just allow a silent thought. A
thank you of sorts.

Surprised at how walking in nature could bring such
troubles. Seeking and finding but was it the right
sound of happiness? Oh I know what was felt. Heart
pounded but not in desire. It beat for a worry that
questions did not cease.

Oh how, why? Don't know so I lean on Jehovah for
the answers. Placing all upon him for I know he will
help me move through the day. Any trial I face he
is with me.

My mind soaks in the scenery that surrounds me.
So dark. A necessity of light as I fling the curtains
open. Still a mildly darkened room. Standing at
window just absorbing the calm of the outside. Calm,
I say, yes because the chaos inside room is choking.

Straying to a memory I smile. One that stirs giggles
and small bouts of sighs. Oh how silly I seemed at
a moment now lost to only a file folder. No paper
trail will it ever have, just stepping stones to a
higher plan.

Oh how the soul is tightened. The shoulders pressed
back and the spine straightened. The head held
high looking over the sky. Soft gray eyes shimmer
midst a foggy morn.

So to have the need to just get out there itches deep
inside. Still I stay seated. Not sure of why but the
conscience says stay. So I listen.

Still had moments of severe thoughts and made a
choice to seek out another blog. So grateful to have
done so because the words inspired. Reminding me
of the hardship I had to overcome, still striving
to press on, even now.

So I go back to what I know is real. The Bible. Jehovah.
His son, Jesus Christ. All the lessons that I feel I am
all alone in, certainly there is guidance of someone
previous to me who experienced. I am not alone in
lessons taught. Jehovah is with me. You are with me.
Showing me that others who are around, too, are on
this rocky road. Best to take the narrow path than that
of the wide, clutter free one for one day I will truly
understand why being unique is important.

Oh how the pressure of life is released. How the
necessities of standing strong and firm in believing
of Jehovah, God and his grand ways of life. No longer
should people see them as restrictions but as
protection.

So along the way, I lost myself. Thought of wants
before needs. Now Jehovah shows me daily all that I
will ever need. So I ask self: why not listen to Jehovah
because you, do realize, he is the Truth? Why deny
yourself his love, his mercy and his patience?

Thinking. Thinking. Thinking. Then realizing Jehovah
already understood my thoughts. Perhaps that is the
reason why the questions still surround.

Such a surreal moment, in a dream, to be awakened
by a shock of either a person or an idea. Especially
when you never thought nor spoke of it before. So
whatever triggered this memory, this image be
grateful to learn from it. For one day, Jehovah might
surprise you too, in a hope coming true.

Continue to pray. Continue to meditate. Continue
to learn and absorb. Each step draw yourself closer
to Jehovah first. All else matters not. Constantly I am
proven by the results, that Jehovah will always take
care of his flock. So have no worries, be not anxious
nor allow your heart the reins over life because
Jehovah, God is here.

Yes trials, persecution we may face but never let that
stop you from showing Jehovah how much you love
him. It is our privilege to be called his people, so
preach, teach others of his patience, his mercy,
his forgiveness, his Truth. You too will learn once more.

So if you are out there and struggling, weigh your
concerns in a prayer to Jehovah and his son Jesus
Christ and they will help answer. So to my brothers
and sisters who fell away, wandered or are
struggling please know that you are loved. We all
want you back. Each day we pray that one day we
will rejoice in being able to finally say hello. So please
ask for counsel, pray for help and guidance.
Constantly try to draw ever closer to our Father,
Jehovah. Always know that our love is out there for
you.

I give smiles to encourage. I send my whispers on the
wind. So know how much I miss and hope that you,
too, come home soon.

So yes, I dreamed of you. Speaking and walking in
your presence. So I understand that a hope can be
so shocking. Also I realize that Jehovah hears, sees
my dreams too. One day I will no longer secretly
rejoice in the smallest steps.

So now moving about and prepping for a short day
of work. Though the sky may be misty and hidden
I still will be grateful to take my breaths of air.
Enjoying the grand moments of giving thanks to
you and Jehovah for coming into my life.

Allow me my tears as I progress. The joy that helps
my spirit shine. One day. Soon, yes?