Trips to join

  Thinking about last time
I saw a smile cross your lips. Gathered
a conversation much needed and
desired.
  My memories are grand like
a waterfall on a hot day. Breathtaking
as a rainbow and just as hurtful
as broken glass.
  Distance I take to recall and
forget. To make new steps, to create
unforgettable trips without you.
Oh how I treasured us. Well
my half of us. Since you didn't
care. Only desired.
  Oh well. Plans I have. Learning
on self. How to take steps.
  I would include anyone who
wants to join but secretly I
would hope you were the one
appearing.
         Shhh. Tell no one.
         Well that would be wrong.
  Oh how I want to be able to say
hold me, my hand. Squeeze tight.
 
Jehovah I ask for help.