I dealt

    Wars wage deep within me.
You I crave, want, need but yet
not attainable. No way to come
close to unless a chance somewhere.
As I say under my breath : don't wish
for it.
    Don't promise me anything because
you always break it. Oh how I learned
well from you.
    I kissed a prince and ended up
with a stone. How ironic. Fall in love,
trusted yet despair you gave - thanks.
    Yet did you know I waited for more?
Anything you gave me I dealt with.
The lies. The treachery. I did. I am
quick. I adapt. Haven't you learned that
yet?
    Here I sit wondering what will happen
yet I don't want to guess. Sleep just
knocks at my temples. The sands drift
over my eyes. Soon they will close
and the battle will have been won.
    My heart still aches and thoughts of
you race across my memory. Pulling out
the best reel, movie we made.
    I sleep. I dream. Memories of us dance
across my clouded mind.
     I lay alone. Will you be here?
Hoping that Jehovah hears my prayer.
He shows me the way to walk from here.