Jehovah knows

   Words crave a voice
yet all I can say is "hush" or
"shh".

   My mind plays a series
of images over and over. Still I
shiver over past reactions.

  Now I wonder why I was so
scared, nervous and shocked. I know
Jehovah keeps me safe. All else
I can pray about and endure.

  Emotions are hard for me. Still
I am grateful for the break in the mold.
The one who told me to get
out. Don't be ashamed.

   Only Jehovah knows, understands
why I listened. Still to this day
I don't even know. All there is,
are questions left floating on
  the surface.

   Who would have guessed
that I am so excited to finally
have you as a true brother, a
true friend. Even I would have
laughed at that in the most
cynical way just a few
  weeks back.

   Now I pray, antispating
a new you. To finally
be one big family.

    Jehovah help us!