Not sure

    Not sure how to breathe
after being that close to you.
My body is still quivering.
    Just seeing and believing.
How? Why? Why bother asking.
So much logic in the answer
that over analyzing it is asisine.
    So why be concerned?
       Hmm because my heart is
still pounding.
    It matters not. My eyes
begin to water and all
the emotion wells up inside.
    Dare I wonder? No because
it will only hurt me. Yet I do
wonder.
    Wanted to say something
yet all I did say was that was
weird.
    My head plays the memories
over and over. I don't want to
be exicted yet I fail myself and
am.
   Gosh if only I had been irrational
and given a hug.
            
               What would you have
                         done?

And yet still I know the answer. Grateful
for the moment to have just walked
away in oddity. Grateful to have not
done against anything I was taught.