Stating the hopes

    Empty the mind upon Jehovah. Erase the worries
and anxieties into Jehovah. The allowances be
known. The limitations held strong by Jehovah.

     In our weakened state of imperfections we call
upon our Father, Jehovah for his loving kindness.
Gaining the strength persevere passed all that wants
to halt any progress.

     As Jehovah did for me on Sunday and Tuesday. The
pressure of hatred pushed upon me, my need for
Jehovah is often times too overwhelming.

    The rigid, straight faces I provide, the little
freedoms to break free all fall down to those trying
to be controlling. They are ignorant in my need of
Jehovah and my spiritual food, family.

     Often times I find it hard to ignore, forgive those
who stab at me. Still I do because it is what Jehovah
wants. As I do too. No wars when peace can actually
be standing in place. The calming.

    Also the only people that keep me afloat know
who they are. The guidance, the basis of Scriptures,
the counsel, the love and proving the Truth is right,
all inside the Bible. How could I not love Jehovah more
for these people, his sheep and my newfound family?

    For me to finally realize nastiness starts within the
home. Our worst pulls from Satan will be there. Yet
holding me tight is Jehovah's love. Drawing me closer
when, in times, I feel alone.

     I do not feel the hatred inside of me. I am not
the greedy, envious, vindictive one I used to be. I
look at my past and shudder. Ah yes the world is
like that.

      I do recall though how my family always stated
I was the black sheep in the family. How I always
listened to a different drummer. Yes I am different.
I do listen to a different drummer still: Jehovah.

       The walks I take are only to gain more insight to
the right choices I must make. The adventures that
I create from driving to work or from home to meetings
are just for me. For me to regain all the confidence
and strength Jehovah is giving me.

     All the while Jehovah is helping me maintain my
love and respect for my family. Some times going so
far as to show me the patience in silence. So often
times I find myself breaking away, taking a walk or
going for a car ride to escape and making the shaky
ground peaceable once more.

     The freedom of such calm is a clearer way to
think, to breathe and to pray.

      So my for the family I have accquired through the
teachings of Jehovah, I hope you continue to pray and
inquire about me.

       For the small selection of people I call friends I
hope you continue to help me in my journey.

       So dear friend of mine would you allow your
choices in life to include helping me still? Through
gifts of hope, love, kindness, dreams, quirky smiles,
laughter or would you rather stop?