Wonder of surprises

    Wonders that never cease to amaze me. People
also fall into that category. Always some sort of
surprise laying around the next bend.

    Small are the whispers of those surprises. Every
once in while one arrives and to great joy the face
beams all day long.

   Alas none has been noticed. At least I find a few
random buds of weeds that brighten the light. Some
blues and some yellows that bring back the childhood
giggles. Chasing and tossing flowers at siblings. Ah
such fun.

   Seems a lifetime ago but today it was just a blink
away. Softness were the laughs echoing inside my
soul. The soothing calm of how beautifully bright
and vibrant all things were. A strong sense of
innocence was viewed. So many changes. Not going
to dwell on the past. Just the quick look and off
to forward march I go.

   Scanning over the loss but with joy knowing I
am comforted by Jehovah. I know my loss may seem
grave to me yet I cannot wallow in the self pity some
would. I just must get up and press on.

   Oh how some moments the attempt is so trivial and
others so simple. La. At least Jehovah sees my
efforts. That is all that matters for he is the only one
that can read hearts.

   Oh ready to absorb the simple things. The beauty in
a fresh breathe of air anywhere in this apartment.
I do so hate the stench that clings to everything. Even
that of my room and an open window. To sleep
outdoors under the stars, where a toxic stink doesn't
overpower.

   Ah alas I must keep pursuing my course. One step
at a time. More and more closer to Jehovah. Patience
will win over all. Love and kindness will open the
generosity and I will be overjoyed. Ah to dance in
a storm.

   So once upon a time, tomorrow. Ah anything is
possible with me having faith in Jehovah. Hope,
dreams, goals and prayers are awaiting just over
there. Jehovah will open the right doors at the right
moment.

  Yes I must be patient for whatever wonderful
surprise leaps into my pathway tomorrow. For all
will be grateful of the smiles I have from baby blues
to soaring spirit inside.

  Yet I must wait.