Plant your feet

A few more months. Just the moment to be near home. Family. It's the safe way to go through life, I suppose. Especially since I have spent most of my life running from it.

Not looking forward to the cold but excited for the times along the lake. That will be my joy. Thankful for all the processes I have found. 

The steps of finding out most of cancer gone. Best news, confirmed. And I keep holding onto the fact that life really is a wonder. All can be gone in one breath .

Can't say that I hated my life but would rather not invade others. Be far from those who I have hurt and have hurt me. More or less Ohio and Georgia will always have my hearts.  Even Oregon.

And in the time I am capable of seeking my friends and family I hold true to not finding reason to look for people. 

I lean into who I am supposed to be. Learning how to find myself, further. Finding my family and loving the joy that comes with each person.

To those of my past, where ever you go, find yourself. Feel free. Be who you wanted to be as a kid. Then hold tight. 

As for me, I ran from my past. I hid it all so well. And those who wanted to dive into it, I scrolled fast so they couldn't read the fine print. 

But now I have faced so much on my own. I have explored so many avenues of me that everyday is fascinating. In the smallest of covers to the dashing of rain.

And today I have found hope for those who I loved dearly. Forgive me if I still care. I will always do that, even in my angry moments. Just who I am.

Life is beautiful even in torrid storms. Because those are the moments you find yourself. And for me, I dance. I live. I laugh.

How about you? Find your place and grow. Finger on a globe and go. Dart in the air, throw. Land on a place and soar. That is my suggestion. 

For me I am going back to the place that haunted my dreams but strengthens me now. No longer am I scared of the transitions. I have no connection here. 

I leap and I have found life. How about you?

Find where you are planting your feet