A new book
Had I followed my worst fears would I have ended up where I am now? No. I would be far from the true me.
I am starting a new book. Fresh chapter that unfolds the ups and downs of life. Entertains those who like to hear mundane yet funny bits of a person's life.
Bits and pieces that flow from a gracious mind. Not emptying but certainly clearing away the dust from unused particles. It's a shine that leaps from change. One that is even more forgiving than the years echoed yesterday.
Thoughts of what I hope to do quakes before me. Lines curve and shape to this new adventure that is unfolding. And still I have my moments of hesitation. I feel those deep grooves of tension. As I sit here wide awake with adrenaline racing throughout my heart and mind, I allow the vibrations to release.
It's that grateful moment when everything stands still and a sigh can finally escape. With great depth a sense of peace settling.
Granted the chapters of my book may be long, there will be one page days as well. Truth be told I cannot be anything but excited because my strength is not my own. Let alone all the courage, love and kindness that falls between rotting cracks.
I know at times I will have rather fallen in the cracks than to have stood up for myself. Yet there are those days, when I recognize my weaknesses and reach for encouragement through the Bible.
And even when I am enclosed in a earth of love I will hope those who misunderstood me, would one day say something. Not in confusion but in wisdom. Although, I understand that in most cases that will be impossible. Still I like to maintain that positive stance.
So for those who carried a thought of me from a year passed see the changes. Maybe one day we could be siblings in the greatness of Paradise.
Still I have a long way to go. Much of my life has made severe turns and churned my stomach into rawness but I am still moving as I should .
Progress can only be seen by one. And as I know it, time and patience heals. Eventually freedom comes when protected by a grand Father, Jehovah.
Soon. One day. Soon. I just need time and compassion. Then all will be where I need it to be. Then Jehovah w/o help me grow further. But under his wings.
So I hold tight to this new book I am building. Every line describes this story of me. Every piece of my spirit will be seen.
Soon. The time is closer and yet unknown. So have faith and be sure that one day you understand, I will be your sister again.
I am starting a new book. Fresh chapter that unfolds the ups and downs of life. Entertains those who like to hear mundane yet funny bits of a person's life.
Bits and pieces that flow from a gracious mind. Not emptying but certainly clearing away the dust from unused particles. It's a shine that leaps from change. One that is even more forgiving than the years echoed yesterday.
Thoughts of what I hope to do quakes before me. Lines curve and shape to this new adventure that is unfolding. And still I have my moments of hesitation. I feel those deep grooves of tension. As I sit here wide awake with adrenaline racing throughout my heart and mind, I allow the vibrations to release.
It's that grateful moment when everything stands still and a sigh can finally escape. With great depth a sense of peace settling.
Granted the chapters of my book may be long, there will be one page days as well. Truth be told I cannot be anything but excited because my strength is not my own. Let alone all the courage, love and kindness that falls between rotting cracks.
I know at times I will have rather fallen in the cracks than to have stood up for myself. Yet there are those days, when I recognize my weaknesses and reach for encouragement through the Bible.
And even when I am enclosed in a earth of love I will hope those who misunderstood me, would one day say something. Not in confusion but in wisdom. Although, I understand that in most cases that will be impossible. Still I like to maintain that positive stance.
So for those who carried a thought of me from a year passed see the changes. Maybe one day we could be siblings in the greatness of Paradise.
Still I have a long way to go. Much of my life has made severe turns and churned my stomach into rawness but I am still moving as I should .
Progress can only be seen by one. And as I know it, time and patience heals. Eventually freedom comes when protected by a grand Father, Jehovah.
Soon. One day. Soon. I just need time and compassion. Then all will be where I need it to be. Then Jehovah w/o help me grow further. But under his wings.
So I hold tight to this new book I am building. Every line describes this story of me. Every piece of my spirit will be seen.
Soon. The time is closer and yet unknown. So have faith and be sure that one day you understand, I will be your sister again.
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