Driving along
When you find yourself just driving just to exit the thoughts in your head, you find this amazing comfort. Well at least I do. I get to concentrate on the road verses all those memories or ideas in my head.
I just let loose those weights that made me drown inside myself. Those times of severe hardships and cruelest of survivals. And when I stop to stand outside my car just for a few seconds I feel the wind. As though going through me. Pulling away my doubts.
This is why I so love taking a carride. I don't have to have a destination. Just the wind and me. In a way it is such a liberation that I realize now how much I miss riding a bike.
The curves that connect in my mind.
So as I draw myself back to driving I get so close to a destination. Realizing I have been on the road for almost 3hrs just driving. Clearing my head. And with that I find myself standing on the edge of the ocean looking out. Seeing myself as this tiny grain of sand.
A flick in the wind and I am somewhere new. Important still. As I stood on that beach I let the world I am fade. I only stood there for ten minutes but it felt as though a decade of hate and 3 decades of shame slipped through my spirit and into the water.
The refreshment of being truly free of all that memories stab. And to be empty of all the past degrading moments in my life.
Just standing there was like my washing. That sway in the wind that made me even more different than this morning.
Yet now as this night has turned over into a new day the only piece of me swirling is the excitement to come. The plans to unfold and be a part of. This is the gracious loving kindness from Jehovah.
And now the eyes become heavy. The one a.m. becomes a solitude moment in time. Just one hope now and peace rakes over me.
I hope you find your complete peace, one day.
I just let loose those weights that made me drown inside myself. Those times of severe hardships and cruelest of survivals. And when I stop to stand outside my car just for a few seconds I feel the wind. As though going through me. Pulling away my doubts.
This is why I so love taking a carride. I don't have to have a destination. Just the wind and me. In a way it is such a liberation that I realize now how much I miss riding a bike.
The curves that connect in my mind.
So as I draw myself back to driving I get so close to a destination. Realizing I have been on the road for almost 3hrs just driving. Clearing my head. And with that I find myself standing on the edge of the ocean looking out. Seeing myself as this tiny grain of sand.
A flick in the wind and I am somewhere new. Important still. As I stood on that beach I let the world I am fade. I only stood there for ten minutes but it felt as though a decade of hate and 3 decades of shame slipped through my spirit and into the water.
The refreshment of being truly free of all that memories stab. And to be empty of all the past degrading moments in my life.
Just standing there was like my washing. That sway in the wind that made me even more different than this morning.
Yet now as this night has turned over into a new day the only piece of me swirling is the excitement to come. The plans to unfold and be a part of. This is the gracious loving kindness from Jehovah.
And now the eyes become heavy. The one a.m. becomes a solitude moment in time. Just one hope now and peace rakes over me.
I hope you find your complete peace, one day.
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