My own thoughts
I must say there are really rough days where standing in my own space is overwhelming. Then I just start to paint or sing and things calm down.
The mind echoes all the thoughts in my head to Jehovah and he lets me release the tension. As I am talking to him I find myself really speaking out about all that is affecting me. Small and great. Then those odd subjects that just keep resurfacing.
Sure I may look like a mad person talking in my car to Jehovah but that is my only space besides the shower where peace can be had. Held and experienced.
Those emptying times are the greatest yet most exhausting moments. The sighing exhale that follows and the depressurizing that entertains my whole soul. Silence is felt throughout my mind and spirit.
I don't know about anyone else but those times are the best. Yet why not make every day like that? Why let yourself build up the tension?
With me, it's almost as though I am trying all the ways to forget or relax. Though trying to do that makes it all worse.
Then I am completely lost in the thoughts and the scenarios. Ugh to have a mind that plays out every incident and ideas is good but also bad. Over thinking can be harmful. Yet this is why I talk to Jehovah. Voice everything that is going on in my mind.
This that peace.
And when I am at a loss for words I just let Jehovah hear my thoughts. This is the kindness he has.
And then all parts of me are soothed. Just the ability to keep going forward. As that is the goal.
So now as the mind rambles on an on I find sleep not coming. So soon the ending of the excitement and goodness of the previous day, I may find my yawns and stretches.
Soon laying head to pillow for a nap. I smile.
The mind echoes all the thoughts in my head to Jehovah and he lets me release the tension. As I am talking to him I find myself really speaking out about all that is affecting me. Small and great. Then those odd subjects that just keep resurfacing.
Sure I may look like a mad person talking in my car to Jehovah but that is my only space besides the shower where peace can be had. Held and experienced.
Those emptying times are the greatest yet most exhausting moments. The sighing exhale that follows and the depressurizing that entertains my whole soul. Silence is felt throughout my mind and spirit.
I don't know about anyone else but those times are the best. Yet why not make every day like that? Why let yourself build up the tension?
With me, it's almost as though I am trying all the ways to forget or relax. Though trying to do that makes it all worse.
Then I am completely lost in the thoughts and the scenarios. Ugh to have a mind that plays out every incident and ideas is good but also bad. Over thinking can be harmful. Yet this is why I talk to Jehovah. Voice everything that is going on in my mind.
This that peace.
And when I am at a loss for words I just let Jehovah hear my thoughts. This is the kindness he has.
And then all parts of me are soothed. Just the ability to keep going forward. As that is the goal.
So now as the mind rambles on an on I find sleep not coming. So soon the ending of the excitement and goodness of the previous day, I may find my yawns and stretches.
Soon laying head to pillow for a nap. I smile.
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