Emerald greens

Twists and turns in life take down roads I used to cringe over and yet so much isn't like that anymore. Any other day I would have stepped aside for many but now I stand up for me. Not in a selfish way.

And as much as I love seeing people FINALLY make a way for themselves I can't help wonder was I really that bad of a person?

I can't answer that completely. See I only have my side of the reality. And to top it I know I will never know. Sometimes it bothers me and other days I just live with it.

And yes I know I will be okay.

Right now I am a little upset but I know all will ease from me. The anxious moments I have that follow will finally fall away. Yet this very second I look at emeralds and I hope the best. Not deleting but finding a permanent lock for them.

Wherever they land life will be bliss. The ride was fun but older and a tad more experienced, I know it's a good time to make my exit.

Every step now takes me to the lake. Every breath, every morning. One day my cottage on the lake will be cozy. Life will be abundant but because I have faith. And love will engulf me.

That is how I have to recall those emerald greens. In love and hope.

And I will.