Wandering
I find myself lost, sometimes, in this whirlwind kind of place. Findiing myself spinning while well seated and confined to the limits of a hard furniture.
Yet my mind only wanders into a dark moment, momentarily. Only as though searching for the piece that made the puzzle complete.
Truth in all that is there, I am always growing. As much as I hope to believe I am this grand mature person I admit I am far younger than those of my contemporaries. And by far recognize my weaknesses. Yet I also grasp the notion that there will always be areas that need some major refining.
It is daunting but what an adventure to seek the ways to grow. As I am sure to fall down on my rear in some case I understand to also get back up and try harder.
The achievement and the reward is everlasting.
For me that wandering was not really a lost point but that of a finding, seeking one. Indeed how much can be taught in a wrong turn. Even if the wrong turn was a hundred miles back. The lessons that can be found are tremendous.
And as I do search I realize time is so very precious. Each day can be the last. Whisked away in the light of oiled lamps to midnight. I truly do understand the urgency.
Though my issues really stem with patience and endurance. So much of me is chaotic and to open anyone else into it sheer craziness.
Yet I am an open book to Jehovah.
And truly that is the only one I need to be because Jehovah will help me get on the right paths necessary.
So today, well, today frustration and stress weighted tightly upon me. Only to help me find Jehovah's words ever so comforting. In the lessons I was reading I found questions to ponder over.
And as I sit here fading in and out of spinning I realize just how powerful one scripture can be. Just meditating over information, asking in prayer for depth of understanding. Truly a exquisite detail.
Maybe not for all but those who do read and find depth, that is me. So smile and remember we are all students.
Yet my mind only wanders into a dark moment, momentarily. Only as though searching for the piece that made the puzzle complete.
Truth in all that is there, I am always growing. As much as I hope to believe I am this grand mature person I admit I am far younger than those of my contemporaries. And by far recognize my weaknesses. Yet I also grasp the notion that there will always be areas that need some major refining.
It is daunting but what an adventure to seek the ways to grow. As I am sure to fall down on my rear in some case I understand to also get back up and try harder.
The achievement and the reward is everlasting.
For me that wandering was not really a lost point but that of a finding, seeking one. Indeed how much can be taught in a wrong turn. Even if the wrong turn was a hundred miles back. The lessons that can be found are tremendous.
And as I do search I realize time is so very precious. Each day can be the last. Whisked away in the light of oiled lamps to midnight. I truly do understand the urgency.
Though my issues really stem with patience and endurance. So much of me is chaotic and to open anyone else into it sheer craziness.
Yet I am an open book to Jehovah.
And truly that is the only one I need to be because Jehovah will help me get on the right paths necessary.
So today, well, today frustration and stress weighted tightly upon me. Only to help me find Jehovah's words ever so comforting. In the lessons I was reading I found questions to ponder over.
And as I sit here fading in and out of spinning I realize just how powerful one scripture can be. Just meditating over information, asking in prayer for depth of understanding. Truly a exquisite detail.
Maybe not for all but those who do read and find depth, that is me. So smile and remember we are all students.
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