Efforts

In efforts to get started on cleaning I forget to remind myself in moderation. In doing so I have completely zapped myself of energy and insomnia has occurred.

I must remind myself to go slower and not remove all energy from the soul. Truly still a lesson I have to learn.

I thought I understood my levels of energy but I must not. And now at five thirty this morning my mind says to shut down all functions.

Indeed I should have rested at midnight. All parts of me scream from overdoing it. Working to sort parts of room to rid of. Truly a trial in itself.

So the positive in the whole situation is a third of room ready to leave house. This is good news.

Still much more to do. And I do understand only to work half of day and have a day off. Hmm. You live and learn.

So now I must mentally prepare for working hard at my secular workplace and focus that there is absolutely no energy left.

But first I am going to try for two hours of sleep. Just something to help with the excruciating pain. Mind over matter psychosis is not working right now. I may just break down and say no.

Yet I must try. So efforts are not in vain.

So good night, good morning. Enjoy day. Stay positive.