Reeling in the positive
I have come to realize that there will be times when my soul just says no to any moving. To the thought of lifting anything when the skin burns is out the question. With as much as I do in a day of nine hours or twelve hours of work the surprise I gain from just moving. Yet today I crashed. Last night the exhaustion of working hard spanning into the emergency room visits just made me realize I am no spring chicken on some days.
Then there are those days I find myself bouncing off the walls with energy. I have more good days than rough. For the thought of being rough or drowned in pain is mind play. More times out than none I am capable of making the day worthwhile. It may mean I walk a little slower or even take more breaks but I have to say thank you to Jehovah for the strength.
Yet today, I feel the lava inside even my nerves. It is this jolt of pain and fire. I do not know how to explain but to say I have molting lava running throughout my insides. Yet there is no bruising nor any broken parts. Just the swelling and the burning.
And most times I have a day like this I am able to say my prayers to Jehovah, to endure while I am in my meeting or anywhere. Though today was coupled with insomnia and weakness in my legs. So sleeping or resting is the only goal.
When recognizing your own weaknesses make note of not how to dwell in it but to expand. I may be stuck in my bed for the rest of the day but at least I am capable of writing and reading my bible. Putting to good use personal time to meditate over the qualities of Jehovah. Plus to address the current challenges I face.
Sure realizing that I am limited is a hard nut to swallow but how I change the outlook of the situation is the key. I strive on seeing positive in a negative, even if the glimmer of hope is close to blackness. The objective is to still know that hope is there. That is faith.
So today I will be writing, reading and uploading. Pretty much the day planned for, yet, I may end up sleeping too.
Then there are those days I find myself bouncing off the walls with energy. I have more good days than rough. For the thought of being rough or drowned in pain is mind play. More times out than none I am capable of making the day worthwhile. It may mean I walk a little slower or even take more breaks but I have to say thank you to Jehovah for the strength.
Yet today, I feel the lava inside even my nerves. It is this jolt of pain and fire. I do not know how to explain but to say I have molting lava running throughout my insides. Yet there is no bruising nor any broken parts. Just the swelling and the burning.
And most times I have a day like this I am able to say my prayers to Jehovah, to endure while I am in my meeting or anywhere. Though today was coupled with insomnia and weakness in my legs. So sleeping or resting is the only goal.
When recognizing your own weaknesses make note of not how to dwell in it but to expand. I may be stuck in my bed for the rest of the day but at least I am capable of writing and reading my bible. Putting to good use personal time to meditate over the qualities of Jehovah. Plus to address the current challenges I face.
Sure realizing that I am limited is a hard nut to swallow but how I change the outlook of the situation is the key. I strive on seeing positive in a negative, even if the glimmer of hope is close to blackness. The objective is to still know that hope is there. That is faith.
So today I will be writing, reading and uploading. Pretty much the day planned for, yet, I may end up sleeping too.
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