I am grateful
So distasteful that almost bumping into someone. Even more so is to recognize her without her children and husband.
Clearly "projects" hours on end are an understated and should be addressed. Grateful it isn't my best friend and my "man". So glad to be out of that twisted group.
And oh how explaining that would be priceless and to be a fly on that wall. Yet I must carry on because that isn't even a flick in my collection of channels anymore.
I just feel grateful that Jehovah pulled me from that wreckage long before I got overwhelmed. And I am grateful Jehovah put me under the correct discipline.
Only thing I can do now is pray that another woman, stranger, isn't hurt by circles done right before her eyes. Secrets are not right to keep. Especially if you love a person, thoroughly.
Yet what do I know. I broke up a relationship of two people, two bonded by Jehovah. And where did I fall into the plan? Oh always was on the outside, as the sick joke.
Yet now I understand that it was the best place for me to be. Had I gotten my heart deeply involved life twists would have be greater and more devastating.
So now I am just watching as the wheel turns, watching the same routines and so grateful I am so far from the tears and scars that come from just knowing that one man.
He is no woman's man. He can't love himself enough to realize to love another is to love himself. That is the constant reminders or threat that lays beneath him.
I recognized it. For that was me. And I willingly wanted to help. Yet there are just some you cannot help. And you have to wash your hands, minds and hearts from.
Grateful my reminders from Jehovah showed me that. Everyday I feel great sorrow for people. Such despair because they just don't know how to get outside of the cycle.
It's hard to stand alone. It's hard to watch people still stuck and not be able to help them. Truly all I can do is pray for them. Try to bring agape towards them. Yet do it all at a distance.
Safely where I am capable of growing closer to Jehovah. For he is who I lost when I tried so hard to change one man.
And through my trials I have found my lessons. I am grateful to be away. Grateful Jehovah protected those people from me and my wild efforts.
Now, though, I work my way back to Jehovah. My cleaned parts and those shaded darkness too. Jehovah has to see it all in order to decide whether I am worthy of his protection once more.
And that I am grateful to even be considered. That is where I stand. So far from this man and his cycles.
I stand alone but not lonely. I stand with hope and faith in Jehovah. That is all I can ask for right now
Clearly "projects" hours on end are an understated and should be addressed. Grateful it isn't my best friend and my "man". So glad to be out of that twisted group.
And oh how explaining that would be priceless and to be a fly on that wall. Yet I must carry on because that isn't even a flick in my collection of channels anymore.
I just feel grateful that Jehovah pulled me from that wreckage long before I got overwhelmed. And I am grateful Jehovah put me under the correct discipline.
Only thing I can do now is pray that another woman, stranger, isn't hurt by circles done right before her eyes. Secrets are not right to keep. Especially if you love a person, thoroughly.
Yet what do I know. I broke up a relationship of two people, two bonded by Jehovah. And where did I fall into the plan? Oh always was on the outside, as the sick joke.
Yet now I understand that it was the best place for me to be. Had I gotten my heart deeply involved life twists would have be greater and more devastating.
So now I am just watching as the wheel turns, watching the same routines and so grateful I am so far from the tears and scars that come from just knowing that one man.
He is no woman's man. He can't love himself enough to realize to love another is to love himself. That is the constant reminders or threat that lays beneath him.
I recognized it. For that was me. And I willingly wanted to help. Yet there are just some you cannot help. And you have to wash your hands, minds and hearts from.
Grateful my reminders from Jehovah showed me that. Everyday I feel great sorrow for people. Such despair because they just don't know how to get outside of the cycle.
It's hard to stand alone. It's hard to watch people still stuck and not be able to help them. Truly all I can do is pray for them. Try to bring agape towards them. Yet do it all at a distance.
Safely where I am capable of growing closer to Jehovah. For he is who I lost when I tried so hard to change one man.
And through my trials I have found my lessons. I am grateful to be away. Grateful Jehovah protected those people from me and my wild efforts.
Now, though, I work my way back to Jehovah. My cleaned parts and those shaded darkness too. Jehovah has to see it all in order to decide whether I am worthy of his protection once more.
And that I am grateful to even be considered. That is where I stand. So far from this man and his cycles.
I stand alone but not lonely. I stand with hope and faith in Jehovah. That is all I can ask for right now
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