My talkings
Looking back over the past few days and I see that I have been on a roller coaster but now I am good to see that I am doing better. The steps I have to take are good and smooth. Sure I have my moments where the next step may or may not be harsh but I am ready.
Sadly I have learned not to trust any man. I have learned through the bible and through trial and error. Man is long from the perfection. Including myself. I realize I have my major issues. I also understand that I cannot hold people to their imperfections but I can hold them to their promises to me.
Sadly to find out when a person does make a promise many are actually just lying. None can say that they are true in their stance. So many have fallen back on one important rule in my life. The promises. I daresay I abhor the ones that make those false promises. They seem to forget people are attached to these motions.
Or try to eliminate them via the notion of assigning a name or label to them. Well if I am any crazy label then note to yourself, man, you had a big influence in the label and the dip in life. So bear me a cruddy cross and say that you are going to play out what you made towards me. Because if you give to others who know nothing about you and what you cycle then you best make good intentions towards all those things you promised to me.
For you have no idea the measures I will go to eliminate you out of my life. All parts of me will wipe you away. Sure I will rekindle memories and feel great sorrow but I can walk away like I have so many other times in my life. Eliminated people completely out.
Yet do I really want to? No. You are a significant part of my trials. Yet I still feel that you purposely hurt me. That it is some sort of sick drive you have. And I am sorry that you feel the need to do such things.
And I even get why you do it. Yet it doesn't stop the questions coming. It still makes me wonder but I have finally just decided if you really wanted to be genuine with me, you would see just how much you can tear me apart.
Alas like you ever read this. You never do and so the words I say seem to be in vain. Alas that is okay because I know I will continue being strong. It is just the grit I have. One day you will understand.
Or may be not.
Sadly I have learned not to trust any man. I have learned through the bible and through trial and error. Man is long from the perfection. Including myself. I realize I have my major issues. I also understand that I cannot hold people to their imperfections but I can hold them to their promises to me.
Sadly to find out when a person does make a promise many are actually just lying. None can say that they are true in their stance. So many have fallen back on one important rule in my life. The promises. I daresay I abhor the ones that make those false promises. They seem to forget people are attached to these motions.
Or try to eliminate them via the notion of assigning a name or label to them. Well if I am any crazy label then note to yourself, man, you had a big influence in the label and the dip in life. So bear me a cruddy cross and say that you are going to play out what you made towards me. Because if you give to others who know nothing about you and what you cycle then you best make good intentions towards all those things you promised to me.
For you have no idea the measures I will go to eliminate you out of my life. All parts of me will wipe you away. Sure I will rekindle memories and feel great sorrow but I can walk away like I have so many other times in my life. Eliminated people completely out.
Yet do I really want to? No. You are a significant part of my trials. Yet I still feel that you purposely hurt me. That it is some sort of sick drive you have. And I am sorry that you feel the need to do such things.
And I even get why you do it. Yet it doesn't stop the questions coming. It still makes me wonder but I have finally just decided if you really wanted to be genuine with me, you would see just how much you can tear me apart.
Alas like you ever read this. You never do and so the words I say seem to be in vain. Alas that is okay because I know I will continue being strong. It is just the grit I have. One day you will understand.
Or may be not.
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