Clarity
It kind of blows the mind that I could allow so much crap to enter into my life. It is kind of sad too that I didn't listen to my Father. Even worse is when I continued in some sort of facade to remain your friend.
Simply put I was a fool. Yet I can only play the fool so many times until I realize that is how you wanted me to look. Foolish and crazy. Just how you like to label people.
Yet hindsight is always clearer. Sadly it all makes sense. Everything.
And as much as it hurt to severe from any kind of friendship it was the release of pent up emotions and removing the blades in my back. I already feel tons better. Minus the migraine I gave myself from crying.
See I hurt myself so much for so little. A scrap of something. Of what? For what?
Finding out the clarity of all things is grandeur. Beauty. It also holds the sadness too and the pity. Indeed I pity all who follow. Yet that doesn't weigh on me.
Falling and being finally content with me is good. I thought this whole friendship was going to be better but then I realized I am better now. It hurt to lose friends you worked so hard to gain but not if you are the one putting in all the extra time. That isn't friendship that is labor work.
So it was good to be gaining light after even a short period. Grateful I don't have to wonder if the conversation is dead on one end, nor do I have to be concerned if I trampled on you much less be wondering if you only talk out of obligation and annoyance.
See that is the frustrations I had. I can only hope no one else feels that way. Certainly it was too complex and way too much drama on your end, for me to deal with.
Hmm. It's good to not need to say anything to you. Indeed this morning will be rolling softly but it's all good. I got my coffee in hand and keys to go.
Gentle peace. Now that is happy and content.
Simply put I was a fool. Yet I can only play the fool so many times until I realize that is how you wanted me to look. Foolish and crazy. Just how you like to label people.
Yet hindsight is always clearer. Sadly it all makes sense. Everything.
And as much as it hurt to severe from any kind of friendship it was the release of pent up emotions and removing the blades in my back. I already feel tons better. Minus the migraine I gave myself from crying.
See I hurt myself so much for so little. A scrap of something. Of what? For what?
Finding out the clarity of all things is grandeur. Beauty. It also holds the sadness too and the pity. Indeed I pity all who follow. Yet that doesn't weigh on me.
Falling and being finally content with me is good. I thought this whole friendship was going to be better but then I realized I am better now. It hurt to lose friends you worked so hard to gain but not if you are the one putting in all the extra time. That isn't friendship that is labor work.
So it was good to be gaining light after even a short period. Grateful I don't have to wonder if the conversation is dead on one end, nor do I have to be concerned if I trampled on you much less be wondering if you only talk out of obligation and annoyance.
See that is the frustrations I had. I can only hope no one else feels that way. Certainly it was too complex and way too much drama on your end, for me to deal with.
Hmm. It's good to not need to say anything to you. Indeed this morning will be rolling softly but it's all good. I got my coffee in hand and keys to go.
Gentle peace. Now that is happy and content.
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