That kind of hurt that demands attention
Its truly funny when you catch someone in a twisted lie. Then they repeat themselves in a the lie to overcompensate themselves and in doing so they lie bigger. I thought I had gotten away from those types of people in my life.
I guess I was wrong.
Now to pick myself back up after a loosening my value of trust for people. It just is truth in reign. Its a sad and unfortunate thing when you have to be the one to see the truth without others seeing. Its quite damaging.
It stabs you over and over again until you can no longer feel that scrapping what is left of you off the wall, is important anymore. It the entire process you learn how to permanently shut people out. Never what you want to do but for the safety of your growth and your love of self you have to do this.
Let go. Fall back into your safe zone. Look away from all that really hit you dirty hard. And it is sad that you support all that you can and for what? To just move it out of your system.
Picturing myself just fine without people in my life. I have learned much about people and they cannot understand me. I get that. I don't ever expect someone to really understand the depth of me and when they possibly think they know, I do something that makes them label me as crazy.
A force of understanding. The leaps I make to bond myself with people. Tell me why?
Tell me it is okay to fall away. Tell me that I can let go and never look back. Oh but I know I am capable. That is the thing. I have been here before. I have seen this all in memory. A wave of what is to happen and I let it.
Then only to walk away without emotion.
Don't lie to me. I see right through you. I am not stupid.
Funny how you demean only yourself when you assume things about me. I feel pity for you and all else. And even more is the pity of those who cling to you still.
Only part of me that says no good byes are necessary. Just the cutting. Ended.
I was fooled once. Redeem yourself if you can.
I guess I was wrong.
Now to pick myself back up after a loosening my value of trust for people. It just is truth in reign. Its a sad and unfortunate thing when you have to be the one to see the truth without others seeing. Its quite damaging.
It stabs you over and over again until you can no longer feel that scrapping what is left of you off the wall, is important anymore. It the entire process you learn how to permanently shut people out. Never what you want to do but for the safety of your growth and your love of self you have to do this.
Let go. Fall back into your safe zone. Look away from all that really hit you dirty hard. And it is sad that you support all that you can and for what? To just move it out of your system.
Picturing myself just fine without people in my life. I have learned much about people and they cannot understand me. I get that. I don't ever expect someone to really understand the depth of me and when they possibly think they know, I do something that makes them label me as crazy.
A force of understanding. The leaps I make to bond myself with people. Tell me why?
Tell me it is okay to fall away. Tell me that I can let go and never look back. Oh but I know I am capable. That is the thing. I have been here before. I have seen this all in memory. A wave of what is to happen and I let it.
Then only to walk away without emotion.
Don't lie to me. I see right through you. I am not stupid.
Funny how you demean only yourself when you assume things about me. I feel pity for you and all else. And even more is the pity of those who cling to you still.
Only part of me that says no good byes are necessary. Just the cutting. Ended.
I was fooled once. Redeem yourself if you can.
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