Hashimoto's thyroiditis disease flares
I wake this morning as soon the pain medicines wear off. I am allergic but the depth of pain experienced yesterday was damaging in its own right.
So as soon as I took 400 mg I became comatose like. Incapable of moving on my own. Yet it was the best forced resting I could give myself.
Extreme exhaustion settled in. The vomiting spells finished. Projectile is life removing at times. The level of exhaustion climbs.
Then to wake this morning incapable of walking nor moving without this intense burning and shoots of pain.
Only tears are allowed in silence and a darkened room. I close my eyes once more to just breathe. The frustration I have explaining this invisible illness, this chronic debilitating disease and yet no one is sympathetic.
They think I lay here playing games or in fact I am out doing things. Really? I wish I was. Yet I am using most of what energy I have to just sit up today. To stay awake. Or even go to the bathroom.
Sure I appear fine but let me show you a steam engine on a hill running on fumes. That was me yesterday. Today this train I am is just running on dry thoughts of getting places.
Just writing this is tiring. I take long pauses before I can finish.
I am just tired. More so recently than anything. And to explain the vomiting spells, just so difficult to keep explaining. Sometimes it is so much easier to say, I am fine than to explain my illness, my weakness.
So today I have been "awake" since before 5 am. Just staring at the ceiling hoping that I will be able to sit up and just get out of bed. Yet it took all my energy to roll to my back.
Just pure frustration. Anybody understand this?
I really would like more expert opinions. Even to keep going to doctors until they finally say they will sign the documentation saying what I can and cannot do in my flare up days.
5 doctors in 2 yrs. Having to explain myself constantly. Please stop telling me it's in my head. Especially this burning and inability to walk or this extreme fatigue and weakness.
In all honesty you make me feel like a looney bin is my safe quarters. Stop. It's degrading.
So right now I am just praying to be able to manage getting up. Even possibly walking. Even if it means I took all my energy to be with socialization.
Silly perhaps but this is day 3 of my flare with Hashimoto's thyroiditis disease. And stomach convulsions. It's easier to say stomach virus than to explain the crashing part of the flare.
So if anyone has words please write.
So as soon as I took 400 mg I became comatose like. Incapable of moving on my own. Yet it was the best forced resting I could give myself.
Extreme exhaustion settled in. The vomiting spells finished. Projectile is life removing at times. The level of exhaustion climbs.
Then to wake this morning incapable of walking nor moving without this intense burning and shoots of pain.
Only tears are allowed in silence and a darkened room. I close my eyes once more to just breathe. The frustration I have explaining this invisible illness, this chronic debilitating disease and yet no one is sympathetic.
They think I lay here playing games or in fact I am out doing things. Really? I wish I was. Yet I am using most of what energy I have to just sit up today. To stay awake. Or even go to the bathroom.
Sure I appear fine but let me show you a steam engine on a hill running on fumes. That was me yesterday. Today this train I am is just running on dry thoughts of getting places.
Just writing this is tiring. I take long pauses before I can finish.
I am just tired. More so recently than anything. And to explain the vomiting spells, just so difficult to keep explaining. Sometimes it is so much easier to say, I am fine than to explain my illness, my weakness.
So today I have been "awake" since before 5 am. Just staring at the ceiling hoping that I will be able to sit up and just get out of bed. Yet it took all my energy to roll to my back.
Just pure frustration. Anybody understand this?
I really would like more expert opinions. Even to keep going to doctors until they finally say they will sign the documentation saying what I can and cannot do in my flare up days.
5 doctors in 2 yrs. Having to explain myself constantly. Please stop telling me it's in my head. Especially this burning and inability to walk or this extreme fatigue and weakness.
In all honesty you make me feel like a looney bin is my safe quarters. Stop. It's degrading.
So right now I am just praying to be able to manage getting up. Even possibly walking. Even if it means I took all my energy to be with socialization.
Silly perhaps but this is day 3 of my flare with Hashimoto's thyroiditis disease. And stomach convulsions. It's easier to say stomach virus than to explain the crashing part of the flare.
So if anyone has words please write.
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