Short day
Short day of work but did a lot of work in four hours. Grateful that I am capable of coming home and relaxing. No need to talk to anyone and no need to rule out people. Just need to sit and soak myself in a book or better yet a movie.
No need to strive to explain myself to people. I have given up on doing that. Especially with the combination of frustration, pain and envy I had enough of blah to carry me through to the next week. Eventually I will be able to just say whatever and move on.
I know I have broken some wood on my walkway but it is okay. I have learned there is no way to go back. And there is no reason to do so either.
I explained myself once, and if that was too much or not good enough then I won't stop anyone from going to the door. Just don't stand in the door way.
Today, tonight is just for inhaling. Just for finding me. I worked hard and tirelessly for almost pennies. So my mind is frazzled to the extreme. I will need a good book and a nice few hikes to take me to this comfort zone I must have when work resumes Monday morning.
I can't expect anyone to be a part of my weekend. I don't add anyone. Just myself. Just searching for my place. Perhaps that is all I can hope for now.
And if people deem me worthy of their time, I am grateful. As for me I can just be fine by myself. For I wish not to show anymore bad parts of me.
So enjoy the weekend. Find your peace. If I am part, wonderful and if not, I will not matter.
Good day.
No need to strive to explain myself to people. I have given up on doing that. Especially with the combination of frustration, pain and envy I had enough of blah to carry me through to the next week. Eventually I will be able to just say whatever and move on.
I know I have broken some wood on my walkway but it is okay. I have learned there is no way to go back. And there is no reason to do so either.
I explained myself once, and if that was too much or not good enough then I won't stop anyone from going to the door. Just don't stand in the door way.
Today, tonight is just for inhaling. Just for finding me. I worked hard and tirelessly for almost pennies. So my mind is frazzled to the extreme. I will need a good book and a nice few hikes to take me to this comfort zone I must have when work resumes Monday morning.
I can't expect anyone to be a part of my weekend. I don't add anyone. Just myself. Just searching for my place. Perhaps that is all I can hope for now.
And if people deem me worthy of their time, I am grateful. As for me I can just be fine by myself. For I wish not to show anymore bad parts of me.
So enjoy the weekend. Find your peace. If I am part, wonderful and if not, I will not matter.
Good day.
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