Sip of silenced tea

  One tiny sip of tea. I gather all my senses to absorb
the aroma of hot cinnamon apple spices. There is no
need for any additives. Just tea bag and water.

  Right now all is silent. Even my mother came into
the living room to check on me. Inquiring why I am
so silent. Probably just the need for a talk yet no
words want to exit my mouth.

   Just have to take myself down the hallway to my
bedroom. I am now placing legs in crossed over style
and just staring out. No real reason just empty. Feel
as though there is a need to get out yet no one is
asking. I certainly don't want to be out alone either.
No fun in that. I even went shopping and couldn't find
anything that struck my fancy. So odd.

   Ah a sigh exhales from my soul only seems to cause
more sighs, a deeper sign of absolute boredom. The
cold air outside doesn't even sound favorable to
my lungs currently. Perhaps the scaulding hot
downpour will make me more alert, less blah.

   Still another sigh escapes. Now off to pinch myself.
Awakening in the signs of pain. Anything to snap out
of meloncholy mode.

   So dear friend, how are you? I hope you are well
and the company you keep doing supreme as well.
Obviously you are not reading anything currently, so
I write all this in an attempt of contained vanity.

   Time eases the last sigh from my chapped lips. The
rattle of the pipes stir my senses. My eyes brighten
from dull gray to stormy blue.

   Hoping now that the sense of emptied calm
eventually soothes. Bringing a happy musical to
caress my eardrums. Enhancing the adrenaline long
enough for me to awaken my mother from her
deep slumber. Soon I will drop into mine for the
evening.

   So dear friend of mine prepare for a silent,
mysterious redhead smirking. Allowing all who want
to meet her see the joy.

   Ah now a rolling yawn escapes and the stretching,
relaxation of limbs begins.

   Dream big. Hope wide. Think of me. Hold onto my
hand as I fall asleep with a memory creasing over
closed eyelids.

   My mind laughs at the memory allowed to be
seen.