Realization of funny niceties

    Funny how people say the nicest things when their
imperfections prove some have the best cosmetic
coverups.

    Why pretend to love, to care when in reality it is
all a façade? Who benefits? Certainly only you because
not even Jehovah likes this kind of behavior.

    Ah this is exactly why I only let a few in. I laugh
in the most cynical way. Then I realize that Jehovah
helps me see yes they are imperfect. No need to
press harder where plainly not wanted.

    So dear friend I apologize if I hurt you but so
many people are showing the ugly sides of them. I
do not know how to press forward at this moment.
Please help.

    No I will not seek out many. Those who know me
have to seek me out. I can no longer play their games
and why should I. To lead where they want the stories
to go. No thank you.

    Yes I love everyone and their flaws with all my spirit
because that is all I have ever known. Still why do
so many push away? Ah why ask why and try to
understand anything on my own. Jehovah is here.
Ever healing and making his daughter stronger. La.

   So much is left open. Oh how times cut. How deep
a wound can fester. The question is what do I let it
do? I can allow myself to wallow in it or I can just let
all go. Ah yes the correct way is to allow all
imperfections be inhaled and accepted.

   Yes dear friend the rational part of me takes over.
The emotional Mary has gone. Day upon day I walk
closer to Jehovah. Not needing anyone to steer me
away from him. So I may be a loner. So what. It is
best to know where I stand verses being in the band
with all the wrong instruments.

   Sadly very few learn anything about me. So sad that
so many allow a judgement to form of me. Nasty that
is when no one has the right to judge or make
assumptions of me but Jehovah and Jesus Christ.

   So here I sit in black and white florals, cinnamon
curls and praying my hardest to ignore the rudeness
I receive from many.

   So dear friend, press a word or two upon my eyes.
Scan the Scriptures to find uplifting courageous
moments. Show how to step forward with joy even
though the knives are awaiting for fresh meat.

   I say I hope you have grand morning light. Any
word is encouraging. Even the smallest flower or
bonded wire. All is encouraging. All I need now is
a prayer for hope and strength to realize very few
inquire on my well being.

   So good night. Hello early morning.