All there is : is for Jehovah

    All that is left in me is for Jehovah. I tried to be
sweet, respectful, kind and nice to people, thinking
that favor would be granted. Now I see Jehovah is
really the only one I should be seeking anything from.

   I strive my hardest to please and still because there
is no sugar, no charm I cannot be a part of any of
their gatherings. Distance. Isolation at its worst.

    Oh well. Jehovah still holds me. Tightly I cling to
what I have been taught is right. Knowing I am doing
as Jehovah asks of me, perhaps somewhere down the
line the answers will open up. Jehovah is guiding me
every step of the way.

    Right now not sure how it is happening but joy
is singing deep within my spirit. Perhaps it is the
admission of stopping to try to prove myself worthy
of someone's attention, worthy of being a friend.

    I just feel good, in my clear conscience, that I only
need to keep proving to Jehovah that I am worthy of
his name. (2 Corinthians 13:5 NWT) No one else. Why,
how it took so long for me to see, I will never know.
Still I do not lean upon my own understanding of
things, of life. (Proverbs 3:5 NWT)

     My kindness is the true gift, talent Jehovah gave
me. Yes there is the talent of art but giving is what
I love to do. Giving it all with the asking of nothing
in return. Just as he did for us.

     Jehovah, how could I have forgotten my love of
kindness? Oh I must have gotten carried away by
my insecurities, the need to be welcomed into lives.
Still that does not matter. Jehovah will show me the
genuine love of others, show me who to gather around.
Leaving off the fake ones in the background. Still
giving them the love and respect of acknowledging
the imperfections. Still I will be guided by Jehovah.

     Even now, still, I have to remind myself that I am
beautiful, I am unique and Jehovah loves me for
being me. Quirky, silly, loving Mary.
(Philippians 2:3; Psalm 55:22 NWT)

     I must remember to always go back to the Bible,
to the Scriptures. Reminding myself we all have
imperfections and I must respect and love all those
who surround me.

     Also focusing on attaining my spiritual goals -
maintaining place at Jehovah's table, drawing even
closer to Jehovah and spreading the good news to
all who will listen.

    So my dear friend do you have any suggestions of
Scriptures for me to refer to? I would love to know
of them.

   So I pray to Jehovah for guidance. The help to
accomplish that Jehovah is the only one that truly
matters.

   Dear friend I am grateful of your prayer for me.
Jehovah was listening. I got the message. A hug upon
the cooling evening air. A kiss on your cheek.

   Ah happy I see what was loved. Me!