Words that divide me

Simple words that rage deep within me, cry a
soft sound. Hesitate in knowing they are all right,
all correct. How does the body move away from
all that is supposed to be a memory?

Come let me hold you.

Hold back my buckets as I say goodbye to you
once more. Oh if I could come back just one more
day. Hold off all my responsibilities for one
more day to just be with you.

I carried you deep inside me. I don't want you
to see me cry. Don't want you to know how I hurt,
from the words, the actions. I am not bitter. I
have learned.  Oh how looking behind me, my
past breaks my heart. All I wanted was to leave
you smiling, reminding you that I will see you
soon.

Walk away. Run! Sprint!
Casually glance at your faces as I pull away.
Ask me once, ask me twice. Yes.

I want to be here, there. Please don't break me
again. Please, I beg, that you don't fall like me.
Don't be me, learn from all that I have done, all
I have proved.

My memories of you, growing. My lids close as I
see the hurt that echoes in your hazel, blue eyes.
Oh how I look away? How do I let go? Can I? Back
away, slowly. Fading into the air, the mist as the
words divide me.