All I can do is smile

A silence stills my thoughts, stills
the roaming emotions. I shiver from
a deep chill.

Motions beckon words and yet nothing
exits my soul. A flash of thunderous
lightning glazes over my eyes. Alert,
so awake I am.

Carrying a whispering cry deep inside.
Hoping to escape still I shove away.

Distance my memories take me.
A quiet smile, laughter seeps out.
Oh too late to draw back.

Tickled skin, fevered veins.
A fiery spirit wants to emerge.

Still I stand in a daze, motionless.

Oh soon I would hope someone
guides me. Soon I open. Screaming
the pain and singing the joy.

Oh help me. My eyes weep. Now
releasing who I really am. Kept
silent so long. Here you stand with a
box of tissues. All I can do is smile.
Weakened by the escaping emotions.

I welcome the walk in nature. To see
Jehovah's creations. My soul is calm. My
eyes changing from sky blue to slate
gray. Oh the warmth feel. The hug, the
words that uplift me.

I thank my brothers and sisters for
showing, welcoming me home.

  Joy in a savage landscape.
        World tears and love forgives.

  So love me.