Amazed

Words swirl inside my mind. Running,
jabbing at every angle.

EXIT! EXIT! EXIT! They shout.

Silently waging their battle inside my head.

One moment at a time.

Breathe!

Hold on and the world will cease. The spinning,
ending as I twirl and twirl with my little girl. Oh
how joyous I became. Lost I thought I would feel
in presence of strangers yet Jehovah held my
back. Keeping me strong in the weakest moments.
His wind calming me, helping me. Allowing me
to enjoy the time and erase the hatred that is
stabbing me in my back.

Words are harsh. I hear. Do I listen to the stings?
No because Jehovah knows the battles, the
scars, the tears that I will soon have released. Once
alone in my car, in my room I shed waterfalls by
the hatred and cruelty I get at every turn, here.

Only Jehovah places sweetness near, my children.
I open up to show that I can love, do love them. For
all the ones that say otherwise, lies.

Jehovah helps me. Gives nature, association with
family and friends, Scriptures from the Bible - the
very words inspired by Jehovah. To this I am
grateful for I know if I allowed the people of
the world to entice or scare me I would not believe
in the hope, have faith as I do now.

Oh for the love and forgiveness I have been given,
I am truly amazed. How else but through
Jehovah's holy spirit did I get such kindness,
love from those?