No longer in fear of controls

   Fake all the words. Crush their
true meaning. Lies. All that you
ever heard. Would you even know
truth if it stabbed you in the heart?

   Can light exist there, your heart?
Does your mind not hear the cries?
The words, memories echoing across
time?

   Does a smile even give joy in
your spirit? Can, will there ever
be an end to your hatred?

    Oh I pray that some day the
cruelty given ends, the mind games,
the controlling to cease.

     My mind ravaged, raped over
and over as I recall what life was
like back then.

    So grateful to get away. I ran.
I hid in plain site. Still I lost.
How was that fair. You still won.

STILL

    Even now you try to control
my every move.

YET

     I want to say, no longer do I
fear a human. A control freak.
I forgive you for your imperfect
state. I constantly remind myself
of the stronger foundation I have
built in the last few years.

NO MORE!

    You tried to hurt me, control
me. Oh how I gave kindness
in return.

    Does this shock?

    Only need you to be happy
because I am happy, will be even
more so every day.

    Closure to an open wound is a
grand beginning. Jehovah and
his words have done just that for
me. Through him I have a grand
structure and have gained many
brothers and sisters I can, will
depend on.

    So yes I do hope. I have faith
in Jehovah and his promises
given in the Bible.

    For you I hope, pray that his
light quakes open your heart,
expands your mind and your eyes
become unveiled.

    So until then all I can do
is love you.