You win and you lose

Sometimes the mind over thinks but what the eyes watch in awe of things just rolls the hurt over and over.

Not fair I want to say but when has that been good for me? Alas when I can finally get my feet forward and work my strength I get bowled over.

And you know I still keep moving. Muddy waters, friendships die. It hurts but I keep going. Trying my best to best. Only though all that is left of the built bridge is the embers at the bottom. Swimming in muddy waters.

I learned. I pushed. And NOW I GIVE UP. There is no comparison. I will never win. But yet I do because I pressed forward when I wanted to just die.

How else do you expect me to be after sights seen. So many tricks. I get the scenery. And I AM TIRED.

I have trusted. I have leaned. I have lost. And yet I still feel wrong. Raw. Pointless but I keep going.

I tried to be peaceful and I will continue but NEVER  again will I be in same flow as anyone.

Not isolating just eliminating. You learn. You live. You gain strength even when you are torn in two. Gotta keep moving.

And let you go. It must be.