I wasn't good enough

Nothing matters now. I see that I can NEVER be thought of as right but I have lived my life forward I won't think of the negative.

I have to experience the positive. So as much as I love so many I have to be extremely careful who I let in.

I almost don't want to let anyone in. This is so tragic in many ways but unlike some I am able to get back on my feet. I can move forward.

If you didn't know that about me,now you do. I am made of strong stuff, called Jehovah.

So here I go forward. As much as possible. I continue to find ways to bring joy from knowing everyone. So I am tired.

I have accomplished all that amounts to a snail. All because I don't look to exploit anyone.

It just stabs me over and over how many were hurt.

It's not fair but I hold my head up. I learn I was your lesson of true, loyal friends but that wasn't good enough.

But I am good enough,I am just perfect being my imperfect self.

So here I am hoping,  praying and yet I don't know where that will lead too. Only to be forward, positive.