I breathe. I experienced a miracle yesterday

So badly I want to write. Explode my thoughts onto paper and yet I cannot. The bit if sadness that comes with that and still so much gratitude.

So many things hurt inside me before Monday and now they seem senseless, stupid emotions.

Gaining that rude awakening makes all else seem trivial.  Clearly all I need is those who once we're friends and got lost in translation to be my friends once more.

All I can ask for is the hope we continue to grow. Nothing more. Each step we become new and stronger.

Those are the only things that matter. Clinging to the hope that trust can be rebuilt and friendship have the best bonding agent ever, Jehovah.

For sure that I breathe today I understand I am still needed. How else can I explain why I walk away from an accident crushing my door and missing a utility pole by a mere foot.

Jehovah has a bigger plan and I am going to be patient. Walking away with internal bruising and sprained shoulder, elbow and hip on left side. When death stared at me in a flash and crunch.

Yes many projects Jehovah has for me. Only the small, menial things are important now. And closing hurt and pain.

Clinging deeper to my faith in Jehovah I have seen miracles throughout my service but I saw, felt and experienced one yesterday. 

The reality of keep on loving and forgiving others.  Such a wonderful blessing and I am grateful.